3 Tips to Making the Most of the Holidays: By Maria De Leon

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“People change when they realize they have the potential to change things.” Paulo Coelho

Here we are again approaching what many people feel is one of the most stressful periods of the year although its intention by design is to be one of a joy. Adding a chronic illness to the mix can make things more volatile even in the best of circumstances.

As a neurologist, this was always the season I dreaded because I knew that I would have to take care of many sick people whose depression, loneliness, hopelessness, and general stress invariably exacerbated an underlying chronic illness causing them to decompensate.

In order to avoid this scenario- the following should be considered.

Have a plan

This means you have to be realistic about your health and family situation. If traveling is difficult ask members of family to come over to your place instead. If this causes too much chaos or is not feasible for others to travel either then consider gathering with close friends or a smaller gathering with loved ones.

As most of us that live with chronic illnesses will attest to the fact that mornings are usually not our best time. So don’t kill yourself trying to have everything ready by lunch time. Take your time, and ask to meet later in the day when you are more likely to be at your best to enjoy the fellowship. Focus on fewer but more meaningful interactions. This way if you have trouble speaking you can more easily focus on one on one conversation. Make sure to maintain eating and medication schedule throughout the holidays.

Do things that make you Happy

This year my family and I have decided that instead of rushing to see other relatives, not knowing how I will feel that day while feeling pressured not to let anyone down especially since those members have schedule constraints, we will leisurely arise and enjoy a meal at home. I love watching the Macy’s parade, this year I plan to enjoy it in my p.j.’s sipping some hot cocoa with my daughter and nephew by my side.

Rethink the Big Picture

Before you commit to anything, ask yourself what are the pros and cons of doing whatever it is you are doing? Will these activities give you purpose and joy or leave you more frustrated and worn out? Or worse cause you to decompensate physically? Having a clear purpose in mind can be extremely gratifying as well as help reduce stress and burden brought on by PD. My main purpose now is spending as much time as possible with my daughter who will be leaving for college soon. Making her happy and enjoying her company is my principal motivator for making this season the best ever.

Find your purpose to enjoy the holidays this season which will leave you not only with great memories but a sense of well-being.

BEST GIFTS ARE THE ONES THAT SPARKLE!!!! So let your inner DIVA sparkle this holiday season!

 

Painting by Ross Webb

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Celebrating Caregivers Month Diva style!- By Maria De Leon

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” Don’t dwell on the disease, value the moments, the pearls of wisdom, their smile and humor.”

I have been most fortunate in having my BFF act as my caregiver. Ironically, I was her husband’s parkinson’s doctor for years and still continue to look after him from the side lines. but, when i was diagnosed and forced to close my practice due to medical issues, she was the first one to assume the role of not just my friend but also that of caregiver and travel companion. She often says she retired, the same year I did, to take care of me.

I suppose its a great symbiotic relationship. I provide levity, distraction, adventure and humor as well as advice in dealing with her own husband’s Parkinson’s of 20 plus years.

In truth, as many of you know it DOES take a village to care for a chronically ill person. She eases my husbands burden and I ease her burden. Although,  as of late since her knee surgery we have become each others caregiver.

Even though we have traveled together many times, this last excursion truly was the most memorable and fun.

Since I have gotten a bit more frail, I asked her if she would like to accompany me to my last meeting for medical writers in Orlando. However, as the day approached she also became increasingly physically compromised which made me wonder if it was a good idea to travel together. The last time I had taken a companion along, I ended up being the caregiver 24/7 which not only wore me out physically but mentally and emotionally as well. In my current weakened state, I was uncertain I could handle the task of caring for someone else. This is often what happens to many care partners, especially those that are older, when they become ill not only do they suffer but also the love one who depends on them.  (this is the time to ask for intervention and help from outside source such as respite care, a home aid, consider assisted living or temporary nursing home, call on other family members or close friends).

However, when both partners are willing to work together and rely on each other strengths, the stress of care-giving can be greatly diminished and might even end up having fun as we did.  So, we set out on an adventure thinking about our needs coming up with the best plan to maximize our well being and minimize any possible injuries and stressors.

start by formulating a plan- including expectations (this is not just for traveling or long term goals but day to day activities)

We knew we both had hard time traveling so we upgraded to comfortable seating in plane, we got a scooter for her and took a walker and cane in case either one of us needed it. I took all the medicines which could help with any incidentals- which by the way came in very handy when I got sick the second day.

Her scooter was great because, I did I not have to carry any bags which usually cause spasm in my neck triggering migraines. we took time to eat so we could take our medicines on a timely manner and rested when we felt like it. It was the first time i did not feel pressured to do or go because if she was tired and needed rest I rested as well and vice versa. Yet, we were able to enjoy nice dinners a day at Epcot and I was able to attend my conference while she rested.

We decided on the best mode of transportation – i.e. whose car was more comfortable for travel and who did best driving depending on time of day and physicality. She drove while I was sedated by medications. Also we considered time of day when we are at our best to take charge of situation, I am best at night and she in the morning- ease peace to divide responsibilities just as I do with my husband in caring for our daughter and other house responsibilities. { don’t try to do it all or go at alone- unless your spouse/ patient is completely incapacitated and demented, there are things that can be split up- giving them a sense of purpose and also allowing you free time}

So in the end, with open communication, realistic goals and expectations care-giving can be a bit less stressing and accept that there may be days when plans just have to be thrown out the window due to unexpected circumstances. (we both were so tired one morning, we decided to forgo early morning event we had scheduled.)

Despite, many physical impediments we manged to have a good time- even got our picture taken with a couple of Disney characters!

 me and chip
 jan and me

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Singing the “blues” away: by Maria De León

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“If you are feeling BLUE try painting yourself a different COLOR!” -Hannah Cheatam

We all have episodic feelings of the blues, feeling blah or meh; but how we cope and deal with these feelings are as crucial to our happiness and well being as air itself.

The other day after being sick for nearly 3 weeks, I was finally on my way to feeling physically better. However, my emotional state did not seem to have received the memo. I awoke completely refreshed physically and energized for a new day  but I was just feeling blah inside. Perhaps, I was now crashing after having been so hi on steroids.  Whatever the reason my insides were not matching my outside was not as important as figuring out to how to overcome that feeling of  genuine indifference.  Yet, despite this general lack of care, I had a little voice inside of me that kept playing the words… “tell you what I want, what I really really want..” (Spice Girls- Wannabe) before I knew it  I was uttering words out loud without much feeling initially.blue ocean

I was not about to let the feeling of nonchalance get in the way of  enjoying the gorgeous cool sunny day. So I opted to start singing softly at first then louder. Since I was not particularly feeling happy, I began to think of songs with the word ‘blue’ in the title and thus began my recovery to actually feeling happy inside. After singing a few lyrics from such songs like blue velvet, blue Christmas, my brown eyes blue, blue bayou, blue moon,  and blue (da ba dee da ba daa), I actually began to feel happy and dance moving shoulders, head and hips. My ‘blue’ song repertoire took a turn for a more upbeat selection beginning with Pharrell’s Happy song.

As Bob Marley once said, ‘music when it hits you it goes straight to the soul.’ I discovered that music in its purest form can express that which is silent within us  and in doing so it can lift our mood  by releasing a cascade of happy chemicals starting with dopamine.

In less than half a day I was dancing singing and feeling whole and myself again.

So next time you too feel like everything is blue and all you want to do is shrug your shoulders and throw your arms up in the air because the meh feelings have taken over start humming and singing even if it’s a few chords of sad, depressing blue songs and move to a more up beat repertoire and before you know it you too can beat the ‘blues’ trough song. May be we can start with “you don’t owe me” Parkinson’s and go slowly (despacito) from there.

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“How Do You Solve a Problem like Maria?”: by Maria De Leon

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When life gives you lemons -you make lemon meringue pie…

For the last few weeks, i have been so excited about going to South Dakota to a Parkinson’s retreat in an abbey and all i could think was ..running up a hill singing “the hills are alive with the sound of music…” from one of my all time favorite musicals and beloved character because it not only happens to bear my name sake but is the first movie i recall seeing with my grandfather as a child in Mexico.

But as usual, when I get too excited about something as of late PD always rears its ugly head. so perhaps i should have written how do you solve a problem like PD?

That’s the million dollar question, although no solution as of yet we have to still find a way to make margaritas, pies, lemonade and whatever else you can think with the citric juices of lemons that sometimes having a chronic illness leaves us with.

Although, the theory of PD being immunological is not proven, I am a firm believer that at least in those of us with LLRK2 phenotype do seem to have a higher propensity for getting immune based illnesses like UC ( Ulcerative Colitis),  and other immune mediated disease like thyroiditis and diabetes. ever since i been diagnosed with PD my immune system has been more chaotic than ever leaving me more and more prone to any and all viruses and bacteria circulating about which for the average healthy person would not even have a minimal reaction. But for me a common viral upper respiratory infection it leads to a whole cascade of problems and a new one this time around.

As all of you who live with PD and other chronic illnesses very well know it takes twice as long to recoup from any minor illness than normal people do. One way i have learned to cope with this is make sure start treatments ASAP, drink lots of fluids, rest and take extra vitamins, and levodopa to decrease length of illness which typically works fine. this was the strategy since i got sinusitis infection over 10 days ago knowing full well that i have a huge list of commitments and especially looking forward to traveling to see old friends, meet new ones and run up the hill although with the cough and bronchitis I developed i figured i would be more like a slow crawl. nevertheless, I was optimistic surely I would be all back to normal in more than 10 days time.

Well, little did I know that Maria an unsolvable problem by itself combined with my old pal Parkinson’s would come in to wreak as much havoc on me as it did in Puerto Rico. I am always amazed how many new symptoms of PD I am discovering as a patient that I never knew as a doctor specializing in this disease. I have treated many a MS, stroke, and spinal cord injury patient with dysautonomia- in other words dysregulation of the autonomic system. This is where a mild or seemingly innocuous event like a viral infection can trigger a whole host of responses from the body worst than infection itself. typical triggers are dehydration and bladder infection. Even in the multi system atrophy (MSA) patients who commonly have this problem, have I ever seen such an exaggerated response.

In Parkinson’s patients the dysautonomia is usually confined to abnormal functioning of bladder. But, never in my years of treating patients have I seen a full blown decompensation of organs which are regulated by autonomic system..means all the organs which secrete substances like the pancreas, heart, bladder, sweat glands, gut and so on. So i am experiencing horrific chest pain , breathing problems with increasing mucous production, severe palpitations, increased heart rate, nausea, increased tremors, and profuse sweating. Even though I am freezing to death feeling like I am inside an ice box. so in the middle of 80 degree weather, I am looking ridiculous, as per my daughter, because  on top of all my layers of clothing I have a coat and walking around with a faux fur blanket trying to keep warm. Plus, I am trying to keep my sugar from dropping by forcing down food.

When patients with this problem have an infection they have an exaggerated response of dealing with infection as was my case- having higher fever, increased exaggerated sweating, chills and rigors. But, interestingly and another one for the books is that my cold symptoms were much more unilateral making me think i had a thalamic stroke (organ in brain involved in temperature regulation) or a lesion in my spinal cord. but, after consulting with 2 other movement disorder specialist we came to conclusion it was most likely the PD; although never seen as affecting one side more than another- hence unsolvable Maria problem.

But, as I am always an optimist, I feel that my misadventures have once again left me with a new lesson to impart to all my fellow Parkinson’s patients. should you ever have this problem – don’t panic. But, if having symptoms need to talk to doctor ASAP because it can potentially be life threatening. We treat symptomatically.  This means lots of hydration, high salt diet, head elevation, sometimes requires iv fluid replacement and medications to increase blood pressure like midrodine, flurocortisone.

And of course treat underlying cause which triggered problem in my case upper respiratory infection.

On the positive side, I am hoping that all the sweating has shrunk my waist line a bit or at least partially counteract the effects of the steroids given to me – which thankfully helped to increase my blood pressure and my sugars to prevent me from crashing.

So instead of running a a hill– i will stay home and do conferencing via skype discussing how to solve a problem like me and pd.

 

Source:

To learn more about dysautonomia go to…

  1. ninds.nih.gov/disorders/dysautonomia/dysautonomia.htm

 

 

 

Do it with passion or not at all: By Maria De Leon

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“It takes a glacier about a year to move, but eventually it carves out canyons.” Perseve(red)

Since the time of Ancient Greece, a life full of passion was one worth living well. Whether or not the ancients had eulogies at funeral is unclear. However a man’s life might still have been measured on what drove him- the amount of  passion or ‘pathos’ he possessed – that which made him go all in. In other words, what is it that makes us fearless in pursuit of what sets our souls on fire? For me, I have 3 passions God, my family and Neurology in particular working with those who live with Parkinson’s in their lives.yo y mi libro diva

In the last few weeks my love for PD has been fueled as I have traveled north to drop off my niece at college.  I got the opportunity to meet various Parkinson’s advocates like Chris and John from Philadelphia who graciously opened their hearts and their homes to me and my family for an enchanting evening of conversation and entertainment. I also had the great pleasure of meeting two wonderful people Kate and Chris part of a great social media medical community of Health Union who not only have shared their passions with me but granted me an opportunity to continue my passion for writing about the things I love while helping the PD and migraine communities. Plus, I am super excited that my Spanish book on “living beyond PD” (Viviendo más allá del Parkinson) will finally be making its debut in the next 4 weeks. Plus, I am always completely at awe and stoked to be able to come to you in this humble way to share my life with you so as to provide a ray of hope and sunshine because no matter how strong we are we all need to be loved and cared for. We need each other because we all have days when all the digging and struggling only makes us more muddled.me chris and stephanie

However, as I have fallen many times flat on my face and risen again to fight another day, I have confirmed once again that having and living with a chronic illness like PD does not have to decrease our interest for living, succeeding and dreaming. Life is what you make of it -weather we live with an illness or not have Parkinson’s or something else we all have struggles, hardships, and traumatic events which can propel us forward to a better tomorrow or crush us if we let it.  I have been given the opportunity to travel to South Dakota to do a weekend retreat at an abbey for those who care for someone with Parkinson’s as well as for PD patients which will include exercise classes, and educational classes to teach other the skills of living well beyond their own limitations brought on by the disease.me john chris

Please don’t let the shock and pain you are experiencing g today make you numb for the rest of your life. Even if you got nothing left, find your purpose maybe start by reaching out to your neighbor or friend who has less than you. The storm brings forth character, integrity, honesty especially when comfort is removed. The first step in sorting g over or getting back up is up to us. So, don’t wait for others to rescue you first, rather make your first step in improving your situation and others will join in to help. Remember none of us can do it all alone or know it all. But everyone knows something, can contribute something to our lives. So go ahead and start small. Who care how it looks? Ask for help when needed. When I first began this journey I could not even walk had to use a walker then a cane. I needed help to do most activities including dressing myself. This is not a race or a competition but it is about being empowered and finding yourself  as you push through the darkness into the light as you find your purpose, your own passion that will make you defy all the odds and come out victorious. But the driving force can’t be just anything – it has got to be BIG enough, strong enough and powerful enough to propel you forward.

What drives you today to keep moving? Do you have the passion to go all in and fight as if your life depended on it because it does?

sources:

Be Inspi(red): words of Hope and courage 2007 by Hallmark Licensing Inc.

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The cost of Parkinson’s and other chronic illnesses…

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Although, fortunately the new health reform bill was turned down last night we as patients still face the uncertainty of what the future healthcare system will bring reform will bring. Thus, we strive to have members of congress understand what it means to live with a chronic illness and deal with the financial burden it places not just on the patients and families. More importantly, society as a whole can suffer if there is no assistance for the growing number of people living longer with chronic illnesses like Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s, and cancer to mention a few. As I give thanks to God for the miracle of modern medicine and His Grace which has brought healing to my best friend, I reflect on the issues of healthcare. And as she begins her slow recovery from recurrent metastatic stage 4 cancer which was wide spread, I ponder not only on the toll the illness has left on her body, her family, the relationships but also the enormous financial burden it has placed on them after 8 months of hospitalization, numerous bone marrow transplants, labs, testing and the slew of chemotherapeutic agents not counting the number of specialists and other ancillary staff.  The toll that the cost of medicines takes on a family or individual can be insurmountable. Unfortunately, this is also a place where few people ever come back or recover from. Not only is the sudden realization that our health is not under our control but the daunting reality of having to live a progressive illness as many of us like myself lose their livelihoods and ability to continue working can be far too overwhelming.

The grave reality is that financial factors play a major role in patient’s use of medications and subsequently sadly the patient’s outcome with a disease process. I have seen this first hand as a patient, doctor and caregiver. Sometimes, we don’t think about the financial issues at the onset of illness since our priority is to get well; but as the disease progresses and the time from diagnosis extends, this is the most critical factor in a person’s long term outcome for which many of us are ill prepared and as physicians don’t provide adequate guidance and support. I summit that low incomes and poor finances along with lack of access to medicines and treatments is the number one cause for patients and families demise and dissatisfaction with disease rather than the lack of treatments. I have heard time and time again from both patients and doctors the frustration in their voices in regards to lack of coverage of much needed medications. Unfortunately because always have to revert to the “cheaper” treatments the options become quite limited and not always offer the best outcome.

As I prepared another talk about the 200 years of Parkinson’s and the latest discovery and treatments options I was reminded by the people in the audience to whom I have addressed in past conferences. Most elderly, Medicare on fixed incomes who cannot afford the luxury of paying  high premiums for newer medications even if they do promise  to be more effective, with fewer side effects or prolong quality of life decrease disability and so on.

Looking at other patients with chronic illnesses, especially cancer patients are at risk of filing for bankruptcy due to severe financial burden but what is most interesting is that those who file for bankruptcy in context of chronic illness are at greater risk for having an early demise. Un fortunately, I have seen it firsthand particularly those who are young and don’t have the financial stability that an older person might have from years of productive labor hence are more likely to forego treatments or seek alternate remedies as in the Hispanic communities because of lack of monetary resources and lack of access to health care because of poor or no insurance coverage.  And even when the chronically Ill are over 65 and on Medicare, the restrictions placed by an outside third party who does not understand the intricacies of a complex illness such as Parkinson’s can tie the hands of the healthcare practitioners. Forcing patients to use less effective treatments or older treatments or asking doctor to find the cheapest medication which in the case of Parkinson’s is levodopa/ carbidopa. Although it still remains the gold standard, 50 years’ experience has shown us that this medication alone is fraught with side effects when used as a sole treatment option increasing likelihood of dyskinesia’s and subsequent decline in quality of life.

We cannot allow our chronically Ill to continue to undergo increased financial toxicity due to lack of government support. We must stand up and ask our representatives to continue to provide support for those who are chronically ill and not remove benefits for those with preexisting conditions and improve access to healthcare especially much needed drug treatments.

Some of the questions you might want to have early on with doctor when diagnosed with a chronic illness is referral to social worker, and to lawyers  experts in chronic diseases for financial planning including long term care for spouses or caregivers.

When discussing medications ask the price but also price benefit ratio. Don’t simply ask for a cheaper drug which might result in more adverse effects causing more hospitalizations and more doctors’ visits or side effects than a more expensive medication which in the long run would be more cost effective to keep you stable and also avoid the inherent confusion many have by having different generic brands for same medicine. (In my experience, the varying colors and shapes of same medicine gets patients confused by making them believe they are different especially in the elderly).  Ask if there is a less expensive treatment option that is equally effective.

Are there any nonprofit organizations or community organizations that can aid with burden of Drug cost. Also inquire what about any drug programs from companies – different companies have different philosophies in regard to helping patients.

But also important to note that many drugs used in neurology to treat many non-motor symptoms are off label but widely accepted among the community physicians to treat certain causes but with the new restrictions of Medicare. Previously employed medicines maybe denied leaving you stranded …I am in a quandary at this point with one of my meds. Discuss with your physician have them appeal if denied or find other appropriate alternatives. Don’t just suffer because insurance denied or medicine is expensive.

Here is a foundation where some of you might find assistance Patient Advocate Copay relief -1-866-512-3861. Also look at NORD. http://www.patientassistanceprograms.com

 

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3 Rules to Avoid Confrontation with your Partner when Chronically ill: By Maria De Leon

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The good and the bad mix themselves so thoroughly in our thoughts, even in our aspirations, that we must look for excellence Anthony Trollope, He knew He was Right

Most of us marry someone who is our opposite which is what makes us work as a team by bringing different assets and points of views into the relationship. However, if 3 important rules are not established or discussed, as we get diagnosed with a chronic illness or as Parkinson’s progresses (in my case), there maybe a build up of resentment, quiet seething, and increasingly snide remarks along with looks that could kill if given half a chance.  So, instead of working as a team our contrasting ideas, and managerial styles can lead to friction which can pull us apart by making us feel alienated; as if we were working alone towards different goals.

I have seen this over and over in many patients and friends who both feel as if the other did not care when it fact both are committed to achieving the same goal- well being of the patient and stable, happy marriage. For instance, a wife after suffering a devastating illness in which she has practically been hospitalized for nearly 6 months has left her completely devoid of any will power physically, emotionally, and spiritually she is at the border of giving up from pure exhaustion. What she needs is complete rest and time to process everything she has gone though without anyone fussing over her. Yet, her fears are making her clingy and desperate putting her husband on edge. Husband recognizes depression and her need to talk to someone so he asks doctor for a counselor to help but she refuses the much needed intervention.  His managerial style is to find a solution to her beloved wife’s problem depression which is causing her to not eat and wither away more. After being by her side day in and day out through out the entire ordeal, he too is in desperate need of respite.

Sometimes because of different ways of approaching the situation it may appear instead to the other person that the partner has either given up or does not care. When these sentiments begin to build up inside of a relationship, especially one that has endured much already, is a sign that you are reaching a dangerous zone. A frustration like a patient refusal to adhere to doctor’s orders, or to loved ones wishes for their own well being as the case above, can spark a fire and unleash a fury causing at times a twenty year marriage to implode on itself. Then we are left alone to pick up the pieces  and deal with our illness at the same time through lenses of disillusion.

The epiphany– sometimes a feeling of neglect and betrayal we feel from our spouse is more about us than them. We have to start peeling the layers back one by one before we are confronted with our own insecurities and fears. This will lead to self discovery and understand what we are really upset about. Since, as Maya Angelou wrote “tragedy (chronic illness), no matter how sad, becomes boring to those not caught in its addictive caress.”  Thus, at some point in our lives we have to confront adversity all by ourselves. when you do, remember that Healing is a life long process which starts by being kind to yourself.  You must love yourself before you can love others fully. I pray that you discover this before you lose something more valuable. In our struggle to survive living with a disease or trauma which has greatly impacted our lives is to focus on the “cure” (be healed). Sometimes, sadly as it may occur with cancer patients or trauma victims, physical healing can take place only to expose our deepest darkest fears leaving us emotionally and spiritually devoid.

I have discovered that ironically the best way to heal completely and be free to live life to the fullest is to let go of the idea of finding a quick fix. The answers is not on the outside rather within us and it takes time. Many people go through therapies and treatments like yoga, bicycling, mindfulness, pharmaceuticals, acupuncture, etc. as if by partaking in these we will eventually reach a point where we can say I am finally – completely healthy and cured (from whatever ails us)!

Not so. This is not the end of the world or us for that matter. Not only is it okay to not be perfectly healed since it reflects life as it truly is- imperfect. We are a work in progress.

Instead on focusing on the bad- focus on the good and learn to compromise. Learn to let go of resentments and things that don’t nourish the soul, give you joy, or strength.

Remember, when dealing with an illness like in any relationship 3 rules apply:

#1 Neither one is going to be entirely comfortable all the time–  we are all unique individuals, thank goodness if everyone was like me it would be very chaotic. The pendulum is always swinging back and forth in any good relationship- is a give and take – if one person is always in control then there are bigger issues with poor boundaries that need to be addressed.

#2 Decide upon a philosophy to tackle the illness – this does not mean you are not free to make decision as the situation arises on the spare of the moment -simply means you have an agreed upon common goal-

#3 There can only be one driver at a time– I am sure you are all familiar with the saying “too many cooks spoils the broth.” But, in order to enjoy the drive whatever the scenic route may be, there must be trust that the person in charge of steering will get you to the right destination safe.

Now, you can start living life with the fullest not dwelling on the past, focusing on the future but living the here and now. embrace life do things because they nourish you, they make you a better person not because you are trying desperately to be healed. always be grateful for what you have and the people around you who are willing to stay by your side and support you and share your journey victories and defeats.

Have a blessed week everyone!Image result for Dancing Quotes About Life

Sources:

Spiegel Amy, “Letting go of Perfect: women expectations and authenticity.” Foreword Smith, Angie. B&H Publishing Group, Nashville,TN  2012

Harvey, Cig  (Aug. 2017): “Let it Go.” The Oprah Magazine, Vol 18 (8): 92-103

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A Decade of Living with Parkinson’s Disease : By Maria De Leon

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IMG_3284He  {God} Frames our lives in pictures

Last few days, I have been thinking about all the blessings in my life; especially since I just celebrated another birthday. I have marbled at the beauty that has taken place in my life over the last decade. As we visited Victoria, B.C. and witnesses one of the most beautiful gardens (Buchart Gardens) I have ever seen while (more importantly) being able to enjoy the fragrant aroma of the myriad of flowers, I knew God’s hands were at work in my life. I then was reminded of the book made into a movie ‘THE SHACK.”Image result for limestone quarry inn victoria images

Sometimes, we feel in life while struggling with this illness { and any chronic disease for that matter} that there is so much chaos, uncertainty, doubt and pain that we feel powerless. We may even feel defeated, angry, and unwilling or perhaps unable to go on fighting/living.  we feel that our days of being valued and worth something is behind us. just as perhaps the  like the quarry of lime stone in B.C. once felt proud of its rich minerals coveted by many. But, then it came a time when Parkinson’s came into our lives and we felt like  that quarry seeing its minerals simply dissipate leaving a barren waste of a landscape. Where I once thought I was defeated and had reached my potential, I have learned I was just beginning; just like all of you who suffer with an illness. As I contemplated the pictures of a barren land then beheld the transformation before  me I simply marbled at its beauty. So too I have moved from weakness to strength from spiritual infancy to spiritual maturity.  Realizing that all that goes around us looks like a BIG mess without any order and wonder why bad things have to happen to good people? Yet,  in reality is the combination of seemingly bad things intermingled with good things that allow for growth and blessings. Sometimes, we develop narrow vision focusing on one tree or flower, in our case ourselves or our own problems that all we see is barely a glimpse of a frame of an entire picture. But, when you take a step back the entire scene is revealed.  You will then see the beauty of the garden (your life)  in its entirety.  If you allow it, it might even take your breath away as it has me.

Like the garden I visited, I went from a productive highly regarded person to a barren soil with (I felt) nothing to offer. Yet, all I needed was the right soil to become productive once more. The rich soil has come about from meeting so many wonderful people around the world along the way; while fighting to make lives better by getting involved with the women’s initiative, being part of PPAC and PF (formerly PDF), and the MJFox foundation . Learning to live in the present enjoying each moment as it comes and changing the focus of my lenses outwardly rather than inwardly to me and my problems has allowed me to enjoy the small victories and grow from the defeats. Moreover, my once barren land has once again become rich, in a different way than before, due to the contribution of more skilled and talented people than I to create a beautiful legacy which hopefully can be reaped a 100 years from now when PD will be yet another disease that was eradicated like polio and smallpox.Image result for limestone quarry inn victoria imagesImage result for limestone quarry inn victoria images

These areas were once sunken and lifeless…the two pine tress you see on the right are called the “tree of life” and marked the entrance to the quarry.

These gardens began with a single person not being content with the state of  their surroundings. Although, Mrs. J Butchart was not about to abandon her home and place she loved she did not enjoy the view and chose to do something about it. It takes only one person with one positive attitude followed by a positive action to begin a whole chain reaction that can bring about change for everyone to enjoy. I believe all of us have seeds of greatness inside of us, we just have to stop ( takes initiative and determination) and make a conscious decision to  disallow our window from being framed with negative thoughts and shift our focus to positive ones.  One day, you and I will be allowed to see the completed scene in all its glory so don’t despair. Take one step at a time- this garden has taken a 100 years to reach is current beauty-pray, rest if you must, but never give up. so just because we have PD we don’t have to make him welcome and let it take over our lives – we still have control of our attitudes and where we choose to focus our sights on.

 

 

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Just like Mike: By Maria De Leon

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I want to be like you, talk like you, walk like you…” Disney’s The Jungle Book

As we enter the Memorial weekend I was thinking of all whom have sacrificed for us to continue to have the freedom and liberties we all enjoy in this country…I salute all our military men and women as well as their families for their selfless contributions.

But then there are other types of heroes who have done so much to protect our dignity while living with a chronic illness like Parkinson’s disease that they too deserve our gratitude and admiration.

One of these lovable characters who has stolen our hearts from a young age, is none other than your friend and mine Michael J Fox. He has become the embodiment of PD especially for those of us with young onset.

Seems like ever since I was in medical school training to be a neurologists he has been a constant in my life. I recall when we first heard of his diagnosis and speculated about the cause since he was so young and till then this illness was not associated with young people – at least not as an idiopathic disease.

Then when I was a fellow we at BCM did various gala’s to raise funds for PD.  Mike was the guest of honor  for one of these events. he had already published his first book and everyone including me was so looking forward to meeting him. and getting my book autographed.  But, alas this was not meant to be. he had severe dyskinesia’s by then and was having a difficult time, my heart went out to him. however, one of his managers promised me to get my book autographed but I never got back. (a bit disappointing). yet, Michael appeared live via satellite and did in fact speak to us and despite his severe uncontrolled movements he was as charming and personable as always. Little did I know then that we would share so much more in common both off us developing the illness about the same age.  Twenty years later I would finally get the chance to meet him in person and thank him for his contribution and his eternal optimism. nor did I realize I would get a chance to be part of his foundation as an ambassador for public policy issues.

Recently, he was featured in the cover of AARP magazine , an honor he greatly deserves. As I read this, I realize we share the same philosophy of life in dealing with this devastating illness. I, too, agree that top and foremost importance is to have “optimism” which I call faith- knowing things will look up and work out for the better if you just hold on long enough. This has served him well as he continues to thrive despite nearly 3 decades of PD. I, too, feel this is one of the many reasons along with ability to laugh at my self and my circumstances that I continue to enjoy my life despite living with PD. He also finds a good dose of humor to be just as important as any medication prescribed by a physician.

Finally, besides family, love and giving others what you need in your life is keeping busy mentally and physically that make a world of difference in maintaining a positive outlook on life whether you have an illness or not.

Thus, I urge anyone living with PD or any other chronic illness to be more like Mike and enjoy life to the fullest.

Happy Memorial Weekend everyone!

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Adventures in Dental Hygiene: By Maria De Leon

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Don’t cry because it’s over, Smile because it happened..” Dr. Seuss

 

For those of us living with a chronic illness like Parkinson’s disease even the most mundane of things like getting your teeth cleaned can take on a whole new level of complexity. There is a lot of mental preparation to coordinate appointment to correspond with the time when medications are at their peak of effectiveness. what if we cant drive ourselves? There is something else to coordinate. As I was walking into the dentist office yesterday, after pre-medicating myself for the migraines that are sure to come on after sitting in a room with bright lights glaring right at my eyes- I need my sunglasses next time; I encountered two Parkinson’s patients ahead of me both of whom had severe tremors one with a horrible anterocollis (dystonia bending neck forward- ouch I cant even imagine!) I remembered all the letters I had to write for my patients when going for dental appointments about what medicines to take before and what sedation was safe. Since you guys know its impossible to work in a small confined space like the mouth when someone is shaking all over the place- so sedation is required. Plus when there is severe dystonia of the mouth, face and neck this also adds another level of challenge for the hygienist and patient. Because both of these patients required conscious sedation, to do what I assumed was simple cleaning, they were dismissed for another day when the doctor could see them himself to do work.Image result for quotes about dental work

What used to be a routine thing for me it has become something I dread because the sheer pain it causes me. Aside from the migraines, the last time I did my teeth cleaning my jaw was so dystonic and sore that I was not able to eat normal for a couple of days. although I took muscle relaxants and Tylenol plus Motrin I  ate like a chip monk for a number of days only able to use my two front teeth to chew and bite without triggering excruciating pain and worsening the dystonia which required  repeated massaging to loosen up the masseter muscles, platysma, and sternocleidomastoid muscles ( neck and jaw muscles). it is incredible that a simple action like maintaining jaw open for a short period of time can trigger such dystonia. So this time I was savvy, I took not just my migraine medicine but also Tylenol and Motrin preemptively and an extra dose of dopamine agonist.  yay ! no pain – although those dang light and music in back ground causes sensory over load due to Azilect predisposing or increasing light sensitivity. Next time I am bringing ear buds and shades!

The new thing this time was a bit more trouble with having head pulled back in chair is tendency to choke with saliva and water pooling and not able to swallow normally- making me think about the difficulties of those of us with severe swallowing problems – may need to adjust head position and up doses of medication plus may also need to be sedated to avoid that feeling of being drowned. I am just glad I don’t need any major procedures at this time.  Perhaps may need to do more frequent suctioning or leave suction in place instead of intermittently- to avoid gaging. This is something that needs to be discussed with dentist and oral hygienist before hand.

ever since I had my first surgery many moons ago my jaw was dislocated and with each subsequent surgery this problem has worsen slightly but I believe the culprit for moderate TMJ ( temporal mandibular joint) inflammation and displacement which causes constant clicking of jaw when chewing something hard or if have to open mouth very wide like having teeth cleaned is my neck and jaw dystonia. I am constantly massaging muscles and popping my jaw in place. but this constant dislocation leads to I believe more frequent migraines and fullness and pain in ear. Time for the next intervention. so I have been researching my options. I already take beaucoup of medications. Botox works extremely well for dystonia and headaches but would not want to inject my jaw and make the muscles weaker and more easily to  dislocate. Therefore, the approach is a multi-tier – I found exercises to strengthen jaw weak from PD- which I am trying to do as I write…but not as easy as I thought. May have to start with thinner pen because hard to move my jaw side ways or front and backwards at this time.  ejercisiossee video in web below:

http://www.sovanightguard.com/blog/8-jaw-exercises-to-relieve-tmj-pain/

The 3rd option I may have to incorporate if Botox and exercises do not improve the problem is to get a mouth guard which I am not looking forward to since Dentist suggested I would need to wear all day in order to prevent deterioration of joint. this would entail using a head gear- not sure I like to look more dorky than already am and have more slurring of speech and drooling than what I have at times with PD. However, this may have to be done since I am beginning to have poor alignment of my teeth and develop an overbite – all thanks to oral facial dystonia from my split personality friend the evil Dr. P

Will keep you posted. make sure you don’t neglect your dental hygiene and if having oral facial dystonia and dyskinesia’s seek immediate help before it causes permanent damage.

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