Do it with passion or not at all: By Maria De Leon

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“It takes a glacier about a year to move, but eventually it carves out canyons.” Perseve(red)

Since the time of Ancient Greece, a life full of passion was one worth living well. Whether or not the ancients had eulogies at funeral is unclear. However a man’s life might still have been measured on what drove him- the amount of  passion or ‘pathos’ he possessed – that which made him go all in. In other words, what is it that makes us fearless in pursuit of what sets our souls on fire? For me, I have 3 passions God, my family and Neurology in particular working with those who live with Parkinson’s in their lives.yo y mi libro diva

In the last few weeks my love for PD has been fueled as I have traveled north to drop off my niece at college.  I got the opportunity to meet various Parkinson’s advocates like Chris and John from Philadelphia who graciously opened their hearts and their homes to me and my family for an enchanting evening of conversation and entertainment. I also had the great pleasure of meeting two wonderful people Kate and Chris part of a great social media medical community of Health Union who not only have shared their passions with me but granted me an opportunity to continue my passion for writing about the things I love while helping the PD and migraine communities. Plus, I am super excited that my Spanish book on “living beyond PD” (Viviendo más allá del Parkinson) will finally be making its debut in the next 4 weeks. Plus, I am always completely at awe and stoked to be able to come to you in this humble way to share my life with you so as to provide a ray of hope and sunshine because no matter how strong we are we all need to be loved and cared for. We need each other because we all have days when all the digging and struggling only makes us more muddled.me chris and stephanie

However, as I have fallen many times flat on my face and risen again to fight another day, I have confirmed once again that having and living with a chronic illness like PD does not have to decrease our interest for living, succeeding and dreaming. Life is what you make of it -weather we live with an illness or not have Parkinson’s or something else we all have struggles, hardships, and traumatic events which can propel us forward to a better tomorrow or crush us if we let it.  I have been given the opportunity to travel to South Dakota to do a weekend retreat at an abbey for those who care for someone with Parkinson’s as well as for PD patients which will include exercise classes, and educational classes to teach other the skills of living well beyond their own limitations brought on by the disease.me john chris

Please don’t let the shock and pain you are experiencing g today make you numb for the rest of your life. Even if you got nothing left, find your purpose maybe start by reaching out to your neighbor or friend who has less than you. The storm brings forth character, integrity, honesty especially when comfort is removed. The first step in sorting g over or getting back up is up to us. So, don’t wait for others to rescue you first, rather make your first step in improving your situation and others will join in to help. Remember none of us can do it all alone or know it all. But everyone knows something, can contribute something to our lives. So go ahead and start small. Who care how it looks? Ask for help when needed. When I first began this journey I could not even walk had to use a walker then a cane. I needed help to do most activities including dressing myself. This is not a race or a competition but it is about being empowered and finding yourself  as you push through the darkness into the light as you find your purpose, your own passion that will make you defy all the odds and come out victorious. But the driving force can’t be just anything – it has got to be BIG enough, strong enough and powerful enough to propel you forward.

What drives you today to keep moving? Do you have the passion to go all in and fight as if your life depended on it because it does?

sources:

Be Inspi(red): words of Hope and courage 2007 by Hallmark Licensing Inc.

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Where is your sight fixed upon today? by Maria De Leon

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“Have Mercy on us, O Lord, have mercy on us, for we have endured much contempt.” -Psalm 123:3, NIV 

I had not written much as of late being preoccupied with and distracted by the occurrences that have been shaping our lives around our communities, cities, country and world. I am sure like many of you, I have spent many hours glued to the television set wondering what will happen next? I have been pondering about the options we have when confronted with catastrophic events in our lives as we have seen in the last several weeks. Are many of us prepared physically, emotionally, and spiritually for the challenges ahead?

I pray that you are, if not I hope this gives you new perspective.

Are we feeling victimized or helpless by our physical inabilities ? Have we been experiencing particularly low morale? Sometimes is easier to focus on the MOST obvious- the raging storm around us! But, no matter our circumstances because eventually all the life storms pass on by. Therefore, we must learn to see beyond our PD and our present circumstances. We must develop a higher, broader and deeper vision for our lives. How do you envision your life in a year? 5 years? even 10? Are you a person with a glass half -empty or half -full?

So, today as we start another day/week full of uncertainty- I humbly ask God for His mercy in the presence of physical danger and emotionally crippling thoughts of being at the end of our rope for you my friends, family and loved who might just be feeling overwhelmed or contemplating giving up. Although, I am sure many of us are feeling dejected and completely fed up with the surrounding circumstances of our illnesses, mental and physical disabilities in the face of extreme danger and would give anything to be able to simply walk away from it all. This is not always possible and our only choice is to ride out the storm until the end.

However, I want you all to find comfort in the story of  Jonah who thought the end had come as he was engulfed by the deep waters, wrapped in seaweed, and swallowed by a big fish. Yet, once he gazed upward and ceased focusing only on his circumstances, he discovered his purpose in life despite being still in the belly of said fish.

Thus, even though we may feel we have lost the battle and may feel imprisoned by our circumstances and our diseases, this is the time we must look beyond ourselves. We must direct our gaze upward and cry out, “God I need your HELP!” I can not do this alone. I guarantee that if you do this, you will come out better than when you first began.

Finally, as we start a new week, I leave you with the knowledge that you alone have the power to choose weather you will remain imprisoned by the cards you were dealt or will you find a way to make the best and become a conqueror.

P.s Stay safe everyone and make sure you have all your medicines (list as well), doctor’s phone numbers and a ready bag which includes water, snacks, flashlight, ready cash, underwear/protective undergarments, deodorant, soap, shampoo that does not require water, toothpaste and toothbrush, shaving kit for men, any assistive devices, a small tank of o2 if on oxygen, change of clothes. This should also include your important papers like passport, etc.

Much Love,

Parkinson’s Diva

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The cost of Parkinson’s and other chronic illnesses…

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Although, fortunately the new health reform bill was turned down last night we as patients still face the uncertainty of what the future healthcare system will bring reform will bring. Thus, we strive to have members of congress understand what it means to live with a chronic illness and deal with the financial burden it places not just on the patients and families. More importantly, society as a whole can suffer if there is no assistance for the growing number of people living longer with chronic illnesses like Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s, and cancer to mention a few. As I give thanks to God for the miracle of modern medicine and His Grace which has brought healing to my best friend, I reflect on the issues of healthcare. And as she begins her slow recovery from recurrent metastatic stage 4 cancer which was wide spread, I ponder not only on the toll the illness has left on her body, her family, the relationships but also the enormous financial burden it has placed on them after 8 months of hospitalization, numerous bone marrow transplants, labs, testing and the slew of chemotherapeutic agents not counting the number of specialists and other ancillary staff.  The toll that the cost of medicines takes on a family or individual can be insurmountable. Unfortunately, this is also a place where few people ever come back or recover from. Not only is the sudden realization that our health is not under our control but the daunting reality of having to live a progressive illness as many of us like myself lose their livelihoods and ability to continue working can be far too overwhelming.

The grave reality is that financial factors play a major role in patient’s use of medications and subsequently sadly the patient’s outcome with a disease process. I have seen this first hand as a patient, doctor and caregiver. Sometimes, we don’t think about the financial issues at the onset of illness since our priority is to get well; but as the disease progresses and the time from diagnosis extends, this is the most critical factor in a person’s long term outcome for which many of us are ill prepared and as physicians don’t provide adequate guidance and support. I summit that low incomes and poor finances along with lack of access to medicines and treatments is the number one cause for patients and families demise and dissatisfaction with disease rather than the lack of treatments. I have heard time and time again from both patients and doctors the frustration in their voices in regards to lack of coverage of much needed medications. Unfortunately because always have to revert to the “cheaper” treatments the options become quite limited and not always offer the best outcome.

As I prepared another talk about the 200 years of Parkinson’s and the latest discovery and treatments options I was reminded by the people in the audience to whom I have addressed in past conferences. Most elderly, Medicare on fixed incomes who cannot afford the luxury of paying  high premiums for newer medications even if they do promise  to be more effective, with fewer side effects or prolong quality of life decrease disability and so on.

Looking at other patients with chronic illnesses, especially cancer patients are at risk of filing for bankruptcy due to severe financial burden but what is most interesting is that those who file for bankruptcy in context of chronic illness are at greater risk for having an early demise. Un fortunately, I have seen it firsthand particularly those who are young and don’t have the financial stability that an older person might have from years of productive labor hence are more likely to forego treatments or seek alternate remedies as in the Hispanic communities because of lack of monetary resources and lack of access to health care because of poor or no insurance coverage.  And even when the chronically Ill are over 65 and on Medicare, the restrictions placed by an outside third party who does not understand the intricacies of a complex illness such as Parkinson’s can tie the hands of the healthcare practitioners. Forcing patients to use less effective treatments or older treatments or asking doctor to find the cheapest medication which in the case of Parkinson’s is levodopa/ carbidopa. Although it still remains the gold standard, 50 years’ experience has shown us that this medication alone is fraught with side effects when used as a sole treatment option increasing likelihood of dyskinesia’s and subsequent decline in quality of life.

We cannot allow our chronically Ill to continue to undergo increased financial toxicity due to lack of government support. We must stand up and ask our representatives to continue to provide support for those who are chronically ill and not remove benefits for those with preexisting conditions and improve access to healthcare especially much needed drug treatments.

Some of the questions you might want to have early on with doctor when diagnosed with a chronic illness is referral to social worker, and to lawyers  experts in chronic diseases for financial planning including long term care for spouses or caregivers.

When discussing medications ask the price but also price benefit ratio. Don’t simply ask for a cheaper drug which might result in more adverse effects causing more hospitalizations and more doctors’ visits or side effects than a more expensive medication which in the long run would be more cost effective to keep you stable and also avoid the inherent confusion many have by having different generic brands for same medicine. (In my experience, the varying colors and shapes of same medicine gets patients confused by making them believe they are different especially in the elderly).  Ask if there is a less expensive treatment option that is equally effective.

Are there any nonprofit organizations or community organizations that can aid with burden of Drug cost. Also inquire what about any drug programs from companies – different companies have different philosophies in regard to helping patients.

But also important to note that many drugs used in neurology to treat many non-motor symptoms are off label but widely accepted among the community physicians to treat certain causes but with the new restrictions of Medicare. Previously employed medicines maybe denied leaving you stranded …I am in a quandary at this point with one of my meds. Discuss with your physician have them appeal if denied or find other appropriate alternatives. Don’t just suffer because insurance denied or medicine is expensive.

Here is a foundation where some of you might find assistance Patient Advocate Copay relief -1-866-512-3861. Also look at NORD. http://www.patientassistanceprograms.com

 

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3 Rules to Avoid Confrontation with your Partner when Chronically ill: By Maria De Leon

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The good and the bad mix themselves so thoroughly in our thoughts, even in our aspirations, that we must look for excellence Anthony Trollope, He knew He was Right

Most of us marry someone who is our opposite which is what makes us work as a team by bringing different assets and points of views into the relationship. However, if 3 important rules are not established or discussed, as we get diagnosed with a chronic illness or as Parkinson’s progresses (in my case), there maybe a build up of resentment, quiet seething, and increasingly snide remarks along with looks that could kill if given half a chance.  So, instead of working as a team our contrasting ideas, and managerial styles can lead to friction which can pull us apart by making us feel alienated; as if we were working alone towards different goals.

I have seen this over and over in many patients and friends who both feel as if the other did not care when it fact both are committed to achieving the same goal- well being of the patient and stable, happy marriage. For instance, a wife after suffering a devastating illness in which she has practically been hospitalized for nearly 6 months has left her completely devoid of any will power physically, emotionally, and spiritually she is at the border of giving up from pure exhaustion. What she needs is complete rest and time to process everything she has gone though without anyone fussing over her. Yet, her fears are making her clingy and desperate putting her husband on edge. Husband recognizes depression and her need to talk to someone so he asks doctor for a counselor to help but she refuses the much needed intervention.  His managerial style is to find a solution to her beloved wife’s problem depression which is causing her to not eat and wither away more. After being by her side day in and day out through out the entire ordeal, he too is in desperate need of respite.

Sometimes because of different ways of approaching the situation it may appear instead to the other person that the partner has either given up or does not care. When these sentiments begin to build up inside of a relationship, especially one that has endured much already, is a sign that you are reaching a dangerous zone. A frustration like a patient refusal to adhere to doctor’s orders, or to loved ones wishes for their own well being as the case above, can spark a fire and unleash a fury causing at times a twenty year marriage to implode on itself. Then we are left alone to pick up the pieces  and deal with our illness at the same time through lenses of disillusion.

The epiphany– sometimes a feeling of neglect and betrayal we feel from our spouse is more about us than them. We have to start peeling the layers back one by one before we are confronted with our own insecurities and fears. This will lead to self discovery and understand what we are really upset about. Since, as Maya Angelou wrote “tragedy (chronic illness), no matter how sad, becomes boring to those not caught in its addictive caress.”  Thus, at some point in our lives we have to confront adversity all by ourselves. when you do, remember that Healing is a life long process which starts by being kind to yourself.  You must love yourself before you can love others fully. I pray that you discover this before you lose something more valuable. In our struggle to survive living with a disease or trauma which has greatly impacted our lives is to focus on the “cure” (be healed). Sometimes, sadly as it may occur with cancer patients or trauma victims, physical healing can take place only to expose our deepest darkest fears leaving us emotionally and spiritually devoid.

I have discovered that ironically the best way to heal completely and be free to live life to the fullest is to let go of the idea of finding a quick fix. The answers is not on the outside rather within us and it takes time. Many people go through therapies and treatments like yoga, bicycling, mindfulness, pharmaceuticals, acupuncture, etc. as if by partaking in these we will eventually reach a point where we can say I am finally – completely healthy and cured (from whatever ails us)!

Not so. This is not the end of the world or us for that matter. Not only is it okay to not be perfectly healed since it reflects life as it truly is- imperfect. We are a work in progress.

Instead on focusing on the bad- focus on the good and learn to compromise. Learn to let go of resentments and things that don’t nourish the soul, give you joy, or strength.

Remember, when dealing with an illness like in any relationship 3 rules apply:

#1 Neither one is going to be entirely comfortable all the time–  we are all unique individuals, thank goodness if everyone was like me it would be very chaotic. The pendulum is always swinging back and forth in any good relationship- is a give and take – if one person is always in control then there are bigger issues with poor boundaries that need to be addressed.

#2 Decide upon a philosophy to tackle the illness – this does not mean you are not free to make decision as the situation arises on the spare of the moment -simply means you have an agreed upon common goal-

#3 There can only be one driver at a time– I am sure you are all familiar with the saying “too many cooks spoils the broth.” But, in order to enjoy the drive whatever the scenic route may be, there must be trust that the person in charge of steering will get you to the right destination safe.

Now, you can start living life with the fullest not dwelling on the past, focusing on the future but living the here and now. embrace life do things because they nourish you, they make you a better person not because you are trying desperately to be healed. always be grateful for what you have and the people around you who are willing to stay by your side and support you and share your journey victories and defeats.

Have a blessed week everyone!Image result for Dancing Quotes About Life

Sources:

Spiegel Amy, “Letting go of Perfect: women expectations and authenticity.” Foreword Smith, Angie. B&H Publishing Group, Nashville,TN  2012

Harvey, Cig  (Aug. 2017): “Let it Go.” The Oprah Magazine, Vol 18 (8): 92-103

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Fashion & Chronic Illness: Maria De Leon

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Fashion is a form of art. It is an outward expression of my inner self.  Just because  I have Parkinson’s and have had cancer, on more than one occasion,  does not mean that I  have to abandon my sense of style and neither should you!

Image result for images of quotes on art and fashionFashion is the most powerful art there is, it’s movement design, and architecture all in one. It shows the world who we are and who we would like to be.” Blair Waldorf

Just like Coco channel, ” I don’t do fashion …I am {and make my own} fashion.” however, when you live with a chronic illness like PD where sometimes there is not enough energy to even get dressed or get out of bed being stylish and fashionable can seem a bit trivial.

But, I say is not because when we feel the lowest that’s when we have to mustard all the strength in the world to paint our canvases that will shout without saying a word…I am still me and no matter how bad it seems I will not be defeated!

Ralph Laurence said it best, Fashion is something that comes from within. are we in the game or are we out? Will be surrender to live in a constant state of hopelessness and oblivion with our stretchy pants and pj tops or are going to be women who will find a way to rise pink boxing gloves in hand?

This does not mean you have to spend a fortune or dress up in formal apparel, it simply means that no matter what you will paint your own destiny with the things that make you who you are.

If you can’t do your lashes get fake ones cost very little to put on  and they last 4-5 days and you will feel fabulous. If eyeliner is hard to do, consider permanent eye liner. Get thick mascara brushes for lashes which can be applied easily in one stroke or vibrating brushes (Lancôme) which will help with the dystonia and tremors if fake lashes are not your thing.

God knows that taking a gazillion medications wreak havoc with our skin, hair and nails. when these look bad we tend to feel more self conscious and perhaps it might even aggravate our depression. But, doing our nails especially our toes can be more than a challenge. First, we can’t always easily bend to apply nail polish to our toes due to the stiffness.  If by some miracle we are able to, the tremors and dystonia make the paint brush strokes look like those of a 3 year old. Then if we manage to paint our beautiful little toes, removing the darn nail polish  can take an act of congress. My hands cramp and twist just trying to remove polish off one toe which is a work out in and of itself. Now that summer is here, we certainly don’t want to go out to the beach with our toes bear and poorly manicured, I know I don’t. Especially, given the fact that the medications can make our toe nails brittle and discolored on top of bendy twisty toes. I choose to put my best foot forward and splurge for a good pedi -cure with a good massage to the achy feet and legs. of course, you may choose traditional colors or even a bit of whimsy like I have this summer …going for some watermelon toes or a rainbow of pastels.Image result for watermelon toenails

But, if you prefer to do it yourself. There are a few options. You may wish to buy fast drying gel polishes which look great even if you mess up some plus they last longer ..but make sure to buy gel polish remover so you won’t struggle so much. Also because we are more susceptible to other illnesses when we have a chronic disease avoid using artificial nails which trap bacteria and can lead to fungal infections. Look  for water based polishes which are non toxic and  non- flammable-especially great if you will do some traveling this summer.  you may also wish to purchase those strip nail which may be fun to play with. you simply have to cut/ trim to fit your nail.Image result for strip nailsImage result for strip nailsImage result for strip nails

If you want to splurge a bit and have your nails look great for a longer time, consider doing shellac – comes in a rainbow of colors, which I love. But, under no circumstances should you file your nail bed before applying gel polish for shellac because it will destroy your nails for months. I just had mine done for the summer. Having manicured hands and toes makes me feel special and “normal” not like a chronic illness person.  This year I went for patriotic look -(sorry, a bit blurry)

nailsHowever, I would not recommend doing this method more than once a year. This requires the  use of UV light and those of us with Parkinson’s disease are more prone to having melanomas which does not exclude the nail beds. They do take more time to remove- but if you soak with non-toxic gel nail polish remover then place a cotton soaked in polish remover and wrap with foil for a few minutes, this will peel off easily. make sure you use vitamin e oil on your nail beds afterward and don’t forget to moisturize your hands nightly.

Now, that you are feeling almost human again having had a nice mani and pedi go out and frolic about and soak those sun rays which are full of vitamin D. But, while you are out there showing of your own personal style don’t forget the heat can be brutal for those of us with chronic illnesses. make sure you stay hydrated remember that even a tiny amount of liquor if you are craving for a margarita with a little umbrella can seriously interfere with your medications especially if you are tired,  and dehydrated as it did me the other day. Thank goodness for mom’s who are around to help out in times of need. A tiny mango margarita with barely a touch of alcohol did me, on my birthday, making me feel dizzy and putting me to sleep for the rest of the day. Although, the saltiness and coldness of it tasted good, the after effect was not worth the trouble. Guess no more celebrating for me. This 4th of July is water and sweet tea!

So as you enjoy your favorite activities of the summer – don’t forget to wear plenty of sunscreen, sun glasses and something red if cant think of anything else to wear and above all don’t forget to Image result for fashion quoteslove,

Parkinson’s Diva

Happy Fourth Everyone!!!!

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A Decade of Living with Parkinson’s Disease : By Maria De Leon

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IMG_3284He  {God} Frames our lives in pictures

Last few days, I have been thinking about all the blessings in my life; especially since I just celebrated another birthday. I have marbled at the beauty that has taken place in my life over the last decade. As we visited Victoria, B.C. and witnesses one of the most beautiful gardens (Buchart Gardens) I have ever seen while (more importantly) being able to enjoy the fragrant aroma of the myriad of flowers, I knew God’s hands were at work in my life. I then was reminded of the book made into a movie ‘THE SHACK.”Image result for limestone quarry inn victoria images

Sometimes, we feel in life while struggling with this illness { and any chronic disease for that matter} that there is so much chaos, uncertainty, doubt and pain that we feel powerless. We may even feel defeated, angry, and unwilling or perhaps unable to go on fighting/living.  we feel that our days of being valued and worth something is behind us. just as perhaps the  like the quarry of lime stone in B.C. once felt proud of its rich minerals coveted by many. But, then it came a time when Parkinson’s came into our lives and we felt like  that quarry seeing its minerals simply dissipate leaving a barren waste of a landscape. Where I once thought I was defeated and had reached my potential, I have learned I was just beginning; just like all of you who suffer with an illness. As I contemplated the pictures of a barren land then beheld the transformation before  me I simply marbled at its beauty. So too I have moved from weakness to strength from spiritual infancy to spiritual maturity.  Realizing that all that goes around us looks like a BIG mess without any order and wonder why bad things have to happen to good people? Yet,  in reality is the combination of seemingly bad things intermingled with good things that allow for growth and blessings. Sometimes, we develop narrow vision focusing on one tree or flower, in our case ourselves or our own problems that all we see is barely a glimpse of a frame of an entire picture. But, when you take a step back the entire scene is revealed.  You will then see the beauty of the garden (your life)  in its entirety.  If you allow it, it might even take your breath away as it has me.

Like the garden I visited, I went from a productive highly regarded person to a barren soil with (I felt) nothing to offer. Yet, all I needed was the right soil to become productive once more. The rich soil has come about from meeting so many wonderful people around the world along the way; while fighting to make lives better by getting involved with the women’s initiative, being part of PPAC and PF (formerly PDF), and the MJFox foundation . Learning to live in the present enjoying each moment as it comes and changing the focus of my lenses outwardly rather than inwardly to me and my problems has allowed me to enjoy the small victories and grow from the defeats. Moreover, my once barren land has once again become rich, in a different way than before, due to the contribution of more skilled and talented people than I to create a beautiful legacy which hopefully can be reaped a 100 years from now when PD will be yet another disease that was eradicated like polio and smallpox.Image result for limestone quarry inn victoria imagesImage result for limestone quarry inn victoria images

These areas were once sunken and lifeless…the two pine tress you see on the right are called the “tree of life” and marked the entrance to the quarry.

These gardens began with a single person not being content with the state of  their surroundings. Although, Mrs. J Butchart was not about to abandon her home and place she loved she did not enjoy the view and chose to do something about it. It takes only one person with one positive attitude followed by a positive action to begin a whole chain reaction that can bring about change for everyone to enjoy. I believe all of us have seeds of greatness inside of us, we just have to stop ( takes initiative and determination) and make a conscious decision to  disallow our window from being framed with negative thoughts and shift our focus to positive ones.  One day, you and I will be allowed to see the completed scene in all its glory so don’t despair. Take one step at a time- this garden has taken a 100 years to reach is current beauty-pray, rest if you must, but never give up. so just because we have PD we don’t have to make him welcome and let it take over our lives – we still have control of our attitudes and where we choose to focus our sights on.

 

 

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Just like Mike: By Maria De Leon

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I want to be like you, talk like you, walk like you…” Disney’s The Jungle Book

As we enter the Memorial weekend I was thinking of all whom have sacrificed for us to continue to have the freedom and liberties we all enjoy in this country…I salute all our military men and women as well as their families for their selfless contributions.

But then there are other types of heroes who have done so much to protect our dignity while living with a chronic illness like Parkinson’s disease that they too deserve our gratitude and admiration.

One of these lovable characters who has stolen our hearts from a young age, is none other than your friend and mine Michael J Fox. He has become the embodiment of PD especially for those of us with young onset.

Seems like ever since I was in medical school training to be a neurologists he has been a constant in my life. I recall when we first heard of his diagnosis and speculated about the cause since he was so young and till then this illness was not associated with young people – at least not as an idiopathic disease.

Then when I was a fellow we at BCM did various gala’s to raise funds for PD.  Mike was the guest of honor  for one of these events. he had already published his first book and everyone including me was so looking forward to meeting him. and getting my book autographed.  But, alas this was not meant to be. he had severe dyskinesia’s by then and was having a difficult time, my heart went out to him. however, one of his managers promised me to get my book autographed but I never got back. (a bit disappointing). yet, Michael appeared live via satellite and did in fact speak to us and despite his severe uncontrolled movements he was as charming and personable as always. Little did I know then that we would share so much more in common both off us developing the illness about the same age.  Twenty years later I would finally get the chance to meet him in person and thank him for his contribution and his eternal optimism. nor did I realize I would get a chance to be part of his foundation as an ambassador for public policy issues.

Recently, he was featured in the cover of AARP magazine , an honor he greatly deserves. As I read this, I realize we share the same philosophy of life in dealing with this devastating illness. I, too, agree that top and foremost importance is to have “optimism” which I call faith- knowing things will look up and work out for the better if you just hold on long enough. This has served him well as he continues to thrive despite nearly 3 decades of PD. I, too, feel this is one of the many reasons along with ability to laugh at my self and my circumstances that I continue to enjoy my life despite living with PD. He also finds a good dose of humor to be just as important as any medication prescribed by a physician.

Finally, besides family, love and giving others what you need in your life is keeping busy mentally and physically that make a world of difference in maintaining a positive outlook on life whether you have an illness or not.

Thus, I urge anyone living with PD or any other chronic illness to be more like Mike and enjoy life to the fullest.

Happy Memorial Weekend everyone!

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A Parkinson’s Diva Mother’s Day: Maria De Leon

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This statement I think can sum all of us mother’s up especially those of us who are burdened with life’s challenges and illnesses. of course being a “diva” I have to do everything BIG. This means two mother’s day celebrations – well you think it would be awesome but this diva managed to screw up not just one but almost ruin the second one.

First, of all if you happen to be of Mexican decent you celebrate the 10th of May as Mother’s Day no matter what! But, this year my sister informed me that she was just going to focus on one day from now on and that would be the second Sunday as it is tradition here in the States. Given the fact that I had been calling mom, reciting poetry, and giving her gifts to celebrate what we know call “Mexican’s Mother’s Day” I felt a bit uneasy but acquiesced for mom’s sake. This way, I thought, avoid some children calling and not others making mom feel bad.  After all this year we had a much bigger celebration in store; since my nephew -first grandchild was graduating college the day before mother’s day and were planning a family gathering to celebrate both.

So morning of Wednesday came – Mexican Mother’s Day and I feel lousy. I had been having cold sweats and chills the night before. Thank goodness I had a follow- up   appointment at the doctor already scheduled. Of course, I wake up discombobulated drenched in sweat and  realize I have but a few minutes to get ready before I head out the door. as I am stumbling in the closet trying to get ready mom come singing all jolly and happy a mother’s day song to me… I look at her and trying not to make a big to do as I had promised my sister, I uttered some words and kept bouncing off the walls trying to finish dressing.  I got some steroid shots and antibiotics after spending all morning at doctor’s office because mycoplasma infection is going around and I was pretty sick. I was beginning to get ill tempered which only worsened with shot of steroids I received then was aggravated by the fact that all of my family including my sister had decided to make a big to do about this particular Mexican Mother’s Day. Naturally, I felt like a heel for being the only one I might add who happened to have mom in her house and not do a thing…so I managed to salvage the day by taking her out to dinner and having a girls night out- Diva style!

Next graduation came – we started celebrating the day before with a visit to the hair salon followed by a night which included awesome food, much laughter, modeling new clothes and roasting the graduate and much teasing for throwing me under the bus. But all was forgiven with my sisters’ delicious red velvet and cream cheese cupcakes which were to die for… even my husband who rarely eats sweets devoured a cupcake in a single bite and liked his lips and fingers and asked for more.

When today came round two of celebrations took place ‘Diva’ style…I have to do everything GRAND! but the biggest gift and source of joy come from still having a mom who is healthy and strong and looks more like my sister than my mom and of course the whole reason I am called mom  is a precious teenage girl who has all of my unconditional love and who told me today that although, she seems not to hear everything I say.. thanks PD! she is always saying I did not speak like I think I did or say something I know I said and even asking me to repeat things over…

YET, ALL the I lOVE YOU’s come in loud and clear! and she is glad to have me as her mom crankiness, PD,  and all…

What else can any mother ask? Nothing but to know that her children are secure in their mom’s love!

Although a bit late, I say Happy Mother’s Day to all the Parkinson’s diva out there who make PD look easy compared to motherhood!

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Adventures in Dental Hygiene: By Maria De Leon

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Don’t cry because it’s over, Smile because it happened..” Dr. Seuss

 

For those of us living with a chronic illness like Parkinson’s disease even the most mundane of things like getting your teeth cleaned can take on a whole new level of complexity. There is a lot of mental preparation to coordinate appointment to correspond with the time when medications are at their peak of effectiveness. what if we cant drive ourselves? There is something else to coordinate. As I was walking into the dentist office yesterday, after pre-medicating myself for the migraines that are sure to come on after sitting in a room with bright lights glaring right at my eyes- I need my sunglasses next time; I encountered two Parkinson’s patients ahead of me both of whom had severe tremors one with a horrible anterocollis (dystonia bending neck forward- ouch I cant even imagine!) I remembered all the letters I had to write for my patients when going for dental appointments about what medicines to take before and what sedation was safe. Since you guys know its impossible to work in a small confined space like the mouth when someone is shaking all over the place- so sedation is required. Plus when there is severe dystonia of the mouth, face and neck this also adds another level of challenge for the hygienist and patient. Because both of these patients required conscious sedation, to do what I assumed was simple cleaning, they were dismissed for another day when the doctor could see them himself to do work.Image result for quotes about dental work

What used to be a routine thing for me it has become something I dread because the sheer pain it causes me. Aside from the migraines, the last time I did my teeth cleaning my jaw was so dystonic and sore that I was not able to eat normal for a couple of days. although I took muscle relaxants and Tylenol plus Motrin I  ate like a chip monk for a number of days only able to use my two front teeth to chew and bite without triggering excruciating pain and worsening the dystonia which required  repeated massaging to loosen up the masseter muscles, platysma, and sternocleidomastoid muscles ( neck and jaw muscles). it is incredible that a simple action like maintaining jaw open for a short period of time can trigger such dystonia. So this time I was savvy, I took not just my migraine medicine but also Tylenol and Motrin preemptively and an extra dose of dopamine agonist.  yay ! no pain – although those dang light and music in back ground causes sensory over load due to Azilect predisposing or increasing light sensitivity. Next time I am bringing ear buds and shades!

The new thing this time was a bit more trouble with having head pulled back in chair is tendency to choke with saliva and water pooling and not able to swallow normally- making me think about the difficulties of those of us with severe swallowing problems – may need to adjust head position and up doses of medication plus may also need to be sedated to avoid that feeling of being drowned. I am just glad I don’t need any major procedures at this time.  Perhaps may need to do more frequent suctioning or leave suction in place instead of intermittently- to avoid gaging. This is something that needs to be discussed with dentist and oral hygienist before hand.

ever since I had my first surgery many moons ago my jaw was dislocated and with each subsequent surgery this problem has worsen slightly but I believe the culprit for moderate TMJ ( temporal mandibular joint) inflammation and displacement which causes constant clicking of jaw when chewing something hard or if have to open mouth very wide like having teeth cleaned is my neck and jaw dystonia. I am constantly massaging muscles and popping my jaw in place. but this constant dislocation leads to I believe more frequent migraines and fullness and pain in ear. Time for the next intervention. so I have been researching my options. I already take beaucoup of medications. Botox works extremely well for dystonia and headaches but would not want to inject my jaw and make the muscles weaker and more easily to  dislocate. Therefore, the approach is a multi-tier – I found exercises to strengthen jaw weak from PD- which I am trying to do as I write…but not as easy as I thought. May have to start with thinner pen because hard to move my jaw side ways or front and backwards at this time.  ejercisiossee video in web below:

http://www.sovanightguard.com/blog/8-jaw-exercises-to-relieve-tmj-pain/

The 3rd option I may have to incorporate if Botox and exercises do not improve the problem is to get a mouth guard which I am not looking forward to since Dentist suggested I would need to wear all day in order to prevent deterioration of joint. this would entail using a head gear- not sure I like to look more dorky than already am and have more slurring of speech and drooling than what I have at times with PD. However, this may have to be done since I am beginning to have poor alignment of my teeth and develop an overbite – all thanks to oral facial dystonia from my split personality friend the evil Dr. P

Will keep you posted. make sure you don’t neglect your dental hygiene and if having oral facial dystonia and dyskinesia’s seek immediate help before it causes permanent damage.

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Perils of Fast & Furious – Life with PD: by Maria De Leon

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In life some people trip and some fall but some take that trip and make a beautiful dance out of it.Sometimes, I feel like everything is just going too fast with my daughter nearly finishing high school and my only nephew applying for master’s program while my oldest niece heads off to college. I remember holding all these babies in my hands thinking I could hold them forever in my arms. Now, although I am happy and proud, I just want time to stop and enjoy all of it. Why can’t time have Parkinson’s? Wish it would crawl like molasses as my body often seems to do when I want so much to move faster. Wish time would have a bit of memory loss, as  I often do after taking my amantadine, when it comes to the bad days and freezes during the moments of  sheer joy like when I listen to my daughter play the piano and marvel at her talent as she plays one of my favorite melodies-Nocturne. But, alas as much as I would like time to develop PD it would have none of it. However, it has become my friend showing me the beauty around even as my disease progresses and seasons change – there is always something new to behold,  and learn from.

So has been my life this last month,  I thought that once my practiced closed I would feel a void in my life. But, rather I have discovered new activities, skills, talents, and friends I never imagined that I would have all thanks to living with PD.

In my role as ambassador of PF and activist for all people with Parkinson’s, I got the opportunity to have several interviews nationally to raise awareness in the Hispanic community as we celebrate 200 year anniversary of the “Shaking palsy” publication.

No more fast paced times have I had than during these days of interviewing sitting by my phone starting way too early for me and my meds to kick in- fortunately I did not have to go further than my bedroom. one talk after another and another- feeling my words begin to slur as my mouth became thick and dry and hypophonic (low voice) as the effect of  the medication wore off quicker than usual due to the high mental activity. The days went by in a blur compounded by other responsibilities and activities, I as a mother have. Two of my favorite stories which will live in my memory bank forever that occurred during this crazy period are as follow.. which will forever cause a big smile.

My daughter was to sing in the choir at church, I was spent from all the awareness activities and radio show talks that I could barely move and my neck was in a state of complete spasm from talking on the phone for hours. The cervical dystonia invariably triggers a wave of migraines which usually I can abort but not this week when I needed most because the insurance had refused to cover my Maxalt which I have taken for years and the medicine I was given to replace only caused my head to hurt more. There I was with severe migraine throwing up and stiff as a board trying to get dress in a hurry. No can do my body protested. But, I must get ready and attend my daughter’s performance I insisted despite by husbands better judgment, of course I should have listened because by the time we arrived we only saw her leaving the stage.

The second scenario-came about in the middle of the week in the midst of a hectic schedule which include teaching. A friend associated with a group of women I teach left me a voice mail saying there would be a get together and would love for me to attend the following day at noon. No more details or at least I did not hear. The following day  after completing all my morning activities, I realized it was almost noon. I did not want to let my friend down since she insisted I come. But, having been on the computer and phone since 6:30 in the am I was in no way ready to socialize. The dilemma was go all grungy an hope to get there on time or make effort to look presentable knowing full well I would be late. Realizing lunch was being held at a place usually considered a bit more upscale I opted for the latter – thinking this was an informal get together. I arrived late of course and entered a room full of  well- dressed women seated at tables with fine china and cutlery. I nearly retreated but the host caught a glimpse of me and said: ” I am so glad you made it. let me show you to your seat which had my name inscribed on a card.” this was an etiquette luncheon! First faux pas – do not show up late! but, thank God at least I was presentable! after a very enjoyable lunch and fellowship which extended way longer than I hoped for (and could not leave early since I was already late too begin with) I had to sit getting stiffer and more antsy since I had another meeting to attend and the time for this to start was beginning to draw near.   I am still not sure as far as etiquette if would have been better to not look good but be on time or arrive late looking fabulous!  This week back to my slow crawl pace – till next adventure. In the meantime will try to catch up on some reading curled in my favorite diva couch!

Happy Week to everyone!

Art By Ross Webb

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